i feel lyk a piece of shit now! Hahas shit.. Hais.. My flu one wk + le still not okay!

Anyway yesterday was BBQ! Cool it has been a long time since I last BBQed. Hahahas it's fun! Like always lah. BBQ is fun! hahahas! Yah I ate like a pig :D Hahs. But I was like tired yesterday. Reach home bath and go sleep le. Yeah.


Hais. Sadness. Where are the people who used to listen to me? Where are the people who used to make me laugh? Consolation, yes, i did that for them. but hav they did that to me? NO THEY DID NOT! they are apathetic! they don't understand my feelings. NO ONE DOES! Damnnit lor. Really. Damnnit. And I wonder and wonder, what's lack in my life: understanding.

My blog song describes my mood. Yes duan le de xian. There's this part of me that's so empty, kong xu. and it needs to be filled up, badly.

So many things happening. I wonder, when the day comes, will anyone remember?? Will it be like last yr, where I have to spend it all alone in my own room, doing nothing but hu si luan xiang-ying????