We get loaded with excessive information.
Worsened with constant nagging and expectations, like bullets shooting from a machine gun.
We can't hide from the bullets.
There's nowhere to run to, no time to run away, no energy to do so.
And we just have to absorb, absorb and continue absorbing.
When the time comes, vomit everything out, write as if we won't get to write anymore, and you wished you had extra hands.

At the end of it all, what do you get??




The dark chocolate is sooo bitter.
But it's nothing compared to the bitterness I'm feeling now.



"What is this life if, full of care,
we have no time to stand and stare?"

Waaa I'm so bored can.
Ya supposed to study yes, study chinese paper 1, paper 2, chemistry. blahhhh~
but I'm like chao sian can.
Keep slacking and stoning infront of the com.
Omg la.
And the weather sucks.
Keep sweating la!
And I think the weather makes me kind of insane and I start talking nonsense.


Haha anyway, I just want to say my heartfelt thanks to liling and hongchen and my senior.
Hahaha.
Spent my whole afternoon in sch ytd.
But I think I really learnt alot.
Even though is tough.
Yup. And I start to think it's fun.
Wa I think I'm insane.




Laming rawks.


Going off soon.
Won't blog until next week I guess.
=)

Zzzzzz.

Stay focus, don't you think it's so hard to do so?
I dunnoe what's wrong with me recently.
Can't seem to absorb anything.
Shutting my ears at the wrong time.
Opening my eyes at the wrong time.
Getting scared at the correct time.

Tomorrow's a long day with little lessons.
Zzzzz la.

hahahaha!
i deleted the previous post! LOL!
cus i dunnoe what crap i typing also!
LOL thx zhihui. :p LOL!
though i dunnoe what u mean what alarm clock.
HAHAHAHAHA!


Trust no one but yourself.
But sometimes, I can't trust myself too.


Long battle starts..
I go sleep now le.
SUPER TIRED AND MY BRAIN AND MIND IS NOT FUNCTIONING WELL RECENTLY!
Hahaha.
Muahahaha!

Go with the flow, let nature takes its course.
And somebody will perform magic and a fairy will DING, pop out and solve our problems.


I thank the people around me, for bring laughter and happiness to my life.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

When the sky turns grey and the rain starts to fall,
there are sunshines around her like wanting, linghong, zhihui, xinni, yeeting and ziting, and so many more.
Thus, the rain cleared rather quickly.
It has not rain since O level results one yr, almost a year alr.

When the sky starts to fade away from the greyness, another event cause it to be greyer than before.
So grey until it can't take it.
But not to the point of precipitation.



Hate it when things clash hate it when things clash hate it when things clash.
I love repeating things recently.
When I'm stressed, I tend to repeat things.
Hais.




you make me smile.
i wished u didn't.
then maybe i would be happier now.

I stared into empty space, thinking what am I doing with my life, thinking whether all these are worth.
I found no conclusion,
I continue to stare blankly, feeling zombified.
The world became basked in the glorious orange sunset, but the sky turned grey at the same time.
Very grey.
I start to think about some other things.
And I continue to think.
Then, I was overwhelmed with sadness and heartpain.

Didn’t wanted to blog at all, but yah well, my sort of farewell entry.
Sad to say, yeah..

Things are getting tougher, more and more things to do, more deadlines to meet, more responsibilities, more tutorials, more disappointments.

There used to be a motivation for me to come to school, well. Yeah, but after YESTERDAY, no longer. But it's good. Thanks to yesterday, I know where I stand now. At least, my heart no longer yearn to search about and my mind no longer rules me to come online unnecessarily.

Yes, I really need to put in hard work for my languages.
I can't make it.
Can't keep getting S for GP, getting not a v good grade for CLL.
Yeah, and I really really hope I can pass NAPFA, because I don’t want to re-run again. Running 2.4 is like asking me to go & die.


Yeah one last note......

JERRY ACTING A NEW DRAMA :DDDDDDDDDD
PLAY PIANO SIAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~~~~~~~~~
MY GOODNESS,
MY PRINCE CHARMING ^^.

Hahs, only the last paragraph sound so much like me :)

Optimism

Do you know, that it's sooooo hard to be optimistic!
Really.
It's too tough alr.
It's too hard to want to be devoted and stop being so skeptical.
Yah but I can't help it.
I really, hais.
Only 2nd day den liddat alr.


Hai.

Based on paper 1's ans, I think I'm gonna screw paper 1 badly. Really.
And gp.. my goodness..
Can't imagine how bad it will be.






Come online = disappointed.
hais.