Should have been in orchard now.
Sigh, I hate myself.
And here I am online, wasting my life away.
Cant seem to find the motivation and URGE to study for midyears.
Why am I slacking sooooo much??


Ya my life: mon - j8, tues - AMK hub, wed - j8, thurs(today) - AMK hub.
My goodness man. Why is my life revolving around this two places?
I MUST NOT GO OUT ANYMORE :(

Anyway, this few days everyday listen 933 :D
Damn nice, alot nice songs, like xiaogui's gui hun, lin youjia's shen mi jia bin.
NICE!

Next week = tough = mon to thurs in sch.
My goodness.
But yeah, JIAYOU EVERYONE!
MEDIACAMP!


random: Hehe someone never dao me liao. but i should dao lor. why i never dao? must yi ya huan ya ma. hais.


Anyway, jay and jerry :D HAHAHAHA.
Got chance they will he zuo :D
I want to see jerry. :(

Wahahaha, btw DD = drainage density = DADONG my dearest.
Wahaha random. But still, I hate geog. :P

Today is a SUPER unproductive day cus I watched 5 hours of tv. :(
Can't resist la, after xiuyi is su yi hua leh. Shou xin shi rou shou bei ye shi rou.
HAHAHAHA i v kua zhang :P

My last post until exams over, I HOPE. Hahs.

Just want to say,
if you all study until v sian or sad or emo do go watch bai fen bai, cus it's super hilarious. Really.
I laugh until cannot tahan.
Xiaozhu is damn funnyyyyyyy! :)
And jerry rocks ! :D
Yayhoo!



JIAN CHI DAO DI! GO GO GO!

Yes! GP is over, over in two ways. (OVER as in GONE CASE) and OVER as in over for period.
LOL!

Yes! It's finally the holidays. Like woohoo! (ya right, holidays)
At least dunnid to go school everyday to see things u (don't) want to see.
Yay.

Things to buy this hol:
Fan gun ba book;
Lan qiu huo book;
New bag;
My smile.


Hahaha I like being with my classmates.(:


And yah, I miss everyone. :(
Everyone like my sec sch friends.

And up till today I still dunnoe why I take geog.. :( :( :(





///////I hate it, hate it. HATE HATE HATE.
:(
I really hate. I want to hate.
Love to hate and learn to hate.
I hate myself, I hate you, I hate everyone. :(

Today 18th of May, one day after my dearest favourite number 17,
officially,
I finally knew.
I confirmed what I thought it should be. And it turned out to be the truth.
One last time, the final one, the final goodbye.

No more bei yings,
No more lwo,
No more qi-dai-ing,
most importantly, NO MORE WISHFUL THINKINGS.

This time, it's really back to the old Mic, the old Mic who used jycx to escape into her crazy insane world.


Go Mic, though it may seem difficult, but I know Mic is strong, cus she has always been strong, RIGHT?
Jiayou jiayou jiayou , punch fist up into the sky.
Go all the way, without distractions anymore.

Okay my blog might sound like I'm gaining sympathy or what, like pouring all my woes here, but trust me, you haven't see my real woes. You haven't see me bursting with my woes.

I just want to say,
Thank you to the people who cared about me, to cheer me on.
I just want to say,
Some things aren't so simple as what you think it is.
Really.
Words, really, easy to say you know. And I hate it when I can't express myself properly.
When you say it out, it seems so simple. BUT WHEN YOU DO IT, YOU WANT TO USE YOUR ACTIONS TO PROVE IT, IT'S LIKE SHIT.
I just want to say,
that it hurts when you think too much and you start spectucalating and imagine what it is to be but it is actually not what you think it is, and it's only your wishful thinking.
And then suddenly, you start thinking backwards
I just want to say that although I said that I won't be demoralised, I AM DEMORALISED RIGHT NOW. BECUASE THERE'S NO MORE TIME ANYMORE.



Boohoohoo.

I just want to say, I don't have anymore energy. Really. I really don't have.




I just want to say,
GP is next fri.
I just want to say,
I haven't touched chem spa and any homework.


I just want to say,
how many times have my eyes filled with tears but did not rolled out this week.


I know why are my posts so emo, cus I dun have "gan qing de ji tuo".
So lil jycx's news recently, so i turn to DD le..


I know i'm deceiving myself.

Hello people.
I'm back to blog. Cus I dun feel lyk blogging in the near future, at least for now.
Mid years coming ah.
One more week to GP man. I'm like, terribly screwed. Lols.



I just want to say..
Dear friends,
Do not be demoralised by what you are getting now. Do not be disheartened by what is happening now. If u need someone, I'll be there to raise up my hands and hold up the "jiayou" banner for you.

Hahaha. Sound so good right me?
I need people to add oil for me also.
Haha. Just some mad ranting from a totally insane person.
TWO MORE WEEKS den i think I'll be more normal again.


Go study chinese le.
Chinese rawks :) totally.
Jiayou.
I love the word jiayou, cus it gives me hope and courage.


I can't wait for 27th July, my love, jycx. LOL!


Seeya~

I fear for my h1(s)..
Hais.

People are improving, bit by bit, making an effort.
and you? you are just leaving it to rot and die.
Mic, you're an idiot.

My head ache like shit.
Once again.



MIDYEARS COMING!
3 more weeks to stepdown.
Sat got CLL test, and I haven't touch cus I'm too lazy and bored to do so.
Got normal tut & proteins tut, but I dun feel like doing now.
Got so many things to do, so "much" time to complete them.

hahahaha jerry's 7-11 ad super cute can. Hahahha~~
yay i love jerry(:



Lastly,
THANK YOU FRIENDS.

Nobody to help you, you are left alone dying there.
You try to find some optimism in the sky, and somewhere faraway.
Then you look out of the window, only to find to your disappointment and sadness, it's only your wishful thinking.

You feel like a lousy dumb piece of shit when you sit infront of the com, stare at the screen, not knowing what to do.
There's no one to help you, and you're heading nowhere.
You feel the burdens on your shoulder piling up.
And there's no time for you to get rid of them.. They just keep coming.
You are so tired and you want to cry.
You walk home on the lonely path, heading to nowhere.
You reach home at 7 almost everyday, and waste money on cab trips.


You don't feel like saying anymore.
You just feel like your brain is bursting out of ur head.

You look at your dearest idol's photo.
But you can't smile, anymore.

Thank goodness, you have a pretty good class. Otherwise, think she will die sooner or later.


:( :( :( sad day, sad post, sad me.